My Life in Words
My Life in Words
Evelyn lived in the same apartment complex as my daughter’s mother-in-law. And she heard voices. No, really it was a song, not the sort that often comes to us in our mind’s ear, but a real earthy loud song.
No songs were playing outside her apartment; it was definitely coming from inside. The stereo wasn’t on; either was the television or the radio. Still, she could hear that song.
Evelyn began to think she was having mental problems and went so far to speak with a psychologist that lived in the same apartment building. They couldn’t find an answer, and she seemed of sound mind, except for that damn song.
One day Evelyn found the answer.
Have you ever seen one of those coffee mugs that has a song player in its bottom? Pick up the mug, and it is silent. Set it down, and it plays—well, Evelyn had such a mug, and it was playing in her cupboard. She had forgotten she even had it. (Maybe it was playing its Swan’s Song.)
We have voices too, not literal ones, but ones that yammer in our heads on a regular basis. Some call it a monkey mind. Others call it “Being conscious of being conscious.” You are thinking thoughts while thinking that you are thinking them, while also thinking about the task at hand. G. I. Gurdjieff called it “Self-remembering.”
One way to combat this is to stop whatever you are about to do and use the “Gathering mindfulness” technique, that is to take a few seconds to notice what you are about to do. Take in the sight, the sound, the feeling.
The background noise fades, and the world becomes richer.
To quote Jean Huston, “Change perspective through meditation, reflection or focus, and discover yourself to be the latest flower on the tree of the cosmos, ready to Bloom.”
“Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices? I’ve heard them calling my name.” Kermit the Frog (The Rainbow Connection)
One trip to a tropical island and back.
Ten years in the making, cast of...well, eight, counting two dogs and two cats.
Her travels had taken her beyond the shores of her native continent, but she is back where she started, in Oregon.